It's dumb for my own~

Why i want to noe it?
It make me feel all sucker stuff!
Why why why why?
Disappointed, Cry, Angry, etc.
All of facial expression.
Before i noe tat.
I was still happy.
But
When i noe it~
FUCK!
Make me everyday moodless.
Make me try to think bout suicide every moment.
Make me try to take knife and put on my heartbeat.
Make me try to do stupid stuff.
Make me try to think truth and false.
Make me forget wad were our relation.
Make me become more idiot!
Idiot!!!

I have to ignore it.
I have to think it as normal stuff.
I have to make myself clear.
I have to do everything good~
I have to...